JOHN EARL TUCKER 

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DIM | CLOSE MY EYES FOREVER | SUICIDE KINGS | STAIN | THIS LIFE | YOU'LL BE THERE

PERFECT MOMENT | ANGEL | REASON TO LIVE | WHAT AM I DOING HERE? | GIVE MY LIFE AWAY

DIM

Feel my pain.

Her love is all I’ve ever known.

Heal my faith.

It’s all around me.

Her soul is in my own denial.

Oh Lord the future's looking dim for me.

Lord I’ve tried, tried to find some peace.

Lead me home.

It’s been a lonely road to climb.

Free my soul.

It’s never ending.

My own pretending leaves me cold.

Oh Lord the future's looking dim for me.

Lord I’ve tried, tried to find some peace.

SUICIDE KINGS

Eternally. 

We face each moment in a heated rush.

Silence the saviors in a muffled hush.

Terrified that their time is endless.

Where everything is underground.

Children laughing in the world around.

Pictures claim that once upon a time.

We were all just a failed illusion.

Sifting through the sands of modern day.

Forced to represent the things we saved.

Hold on to the edge of who we are

and where we’ve been.

Discrepancies.

Where one hand claims that the truth is such.

While history counters that blame's corrupt.

Deviate to the true condition.

Where policies depict our graves.

Borderlines and twisted frames.

Empty souls that speak of nothing more

Then how it use to be in life before.

Oh baby what is left behind.

Lost within the parallels of life.

Oh can’t we simply resurrect the past

and start anew.

Eternally.

We faced each moment in a heated rush.

Never surrendered to the western touch.

 Innocent to this prime condition.

And here we are now the Kings of peace.

Keepers of the land and all its needs.

Suicidal minds that lift me up and take me home.

STAIN

A new day awakens to find 

hours have turned to grey. 

In spite of all that we know, 

all that we’ve wanted to say.

For our complacent,

amazement,

impatience,

in spite of a new emotion.

Building up our devotion.

It’s all been a stain on love and

our need to know.

Making mistakes in life too soon.

A whole lot of faith

(a new day awakens to find)

from an ordinary man

(a new way to help me decide).

Engaged in the future

(an old emotion to) understand. 

What it means to believe

(a new life to easy to see).

That it’s all I can be

(a new time is promised to be).

And all I need to know

(an old emotion that’s) there in me.

It’s all been a stain (it’s all been a stain)

on love and our world below

(in our world below).

Making mistake in life too soon.

Now we’re expected

 (a new day awakens to find)

to draw the line.

What goes around us

(a new way to help me define)

to sustain and provide

our need for love (an old emotion ain’t).

Still it wasn’t near enough.

It’s all been a stain on love

and our need to know.

Making mistakes in life too soon.

It’s all been a stain on love

and our world below.

Making mistakes in life too soon. 

PERFECT MOMENT

I watch this disenchanted vision.

Inside there’s this need to live.

A photograph

with all it’s beautiful precision

is lost in these wrinkled hands

Hold me and save me from this life.

Your soul is haunting me

 I live in spite of what I find.

A simple way to end this need.

My love I simply can’t imagine

how I have survived so long.

A simple touch

the smell of marigolds in morning.

I dream that you’ve never gone.

God speed to share this time alone.

Your love is calling me.

One wish is to be right by your side

so we can live this perfect dream.

What I need today

is a different kind of world.

A land I can embrace

with the spirt of my life.

Sleep away the time

in a bed of golden dreams.

Where the two of us can soon unite. 

Hold me and save me from this life.

Your soul is haunting me.

I live in spite of what I find.

A simple way to end this need.

Hold me and save me from my  life.

Your soul is calling me.

One wish is to be right by your side

so we can live this perfect dream.

So we can live this perfect dream.

So we can live each day

in the dream

 Living out my life.

Living out my days.

Sleep away the time.

And I’m dealing with my pain.

No one ever knows

the emptiness inside.

Pray to free my suffering.

Pray to end my life.

Hold me and save me from this life

(I pray to end my life).

Your soul is haunting me

(I pray to end my life)

 I live in spite of what I find

 (I pray to end my life).

A simple way to end this need (3x).

REASON TO LIVE

Iʼve been waiting.

 Iʼve been chained to my mistakes.

Iʼve embraced them.

Afraid to walk away

'Cause I might fall

deeper in myself.

Oh through it all

I’ve lived as someone else.

What you gonna do when I fade?

Whatʼs it gonna take to listen?

Who will have the right to live Inside of my head.

And take me.

Embrace me.

Contain me

time and time again.

'Cause all I know

is that Iʼm changing (Iʼm changing).

Deceive me.

Believe me

and leave me here with my regrets

that I have somehow lost my reason,

reason to live.

No one told me.

No one spoke of what Iʼd find.

Oh no one showed me.

The state of my decline. 

'Cause in the end 

the wounds that leave me dark

have come again

and torn away my scars.

What you gonna do when I fade?

What its gonna take to give in? 

Who am I to hide behind these reason I keep?

And take me.

Embrace me.

Contain me time and time again.

'Cause all I know is that Iʼm changing.

Iʼm changing.

Deceive me.

Believe me and leave me herewith my regrets

that I have somehow lost my reason.

What you gonna do when I fade?

Whatʼs it gonna take to listen?

Who will have the right to live Inside of my head? And take me.

Embrace me.

Contain me time and time again

'cause all I know is that Iʼm changing (Iʼm changing).  Deceive me.

Believe me.

And leave me here with my regrets

that I have somehow lost my reason

(oh my reason now).

Take me away

but I have somehow lost my reason

(oh my reason now).

Nothing remains

but I have somehow lost my reason,

reason to live.

My reason to live.

My reason to live.

And take me.

Embrace me.

Contain me.

GIVE MY LIFE AWAY

Sometimes I feel that life is an effigy.

You know I lost my mind

when you slipped away.

I’m watching your ascension ride

on the wings of eternal love.

Maybe there’s a chance that I

will finally set you free.

Should I go it alone?

Why must I go it alone?

I need to go it alone.

 I guess I’ll go it alone.

I’m thinking that it’s all been wrong.

This empty feeling that the best is gone.

I hold you closer than I’ve ever known.

Still I’m drifting away, away, away.

I never wanted to let you go.

I never thought that I would lose it all.

Merely existing in an empty home.

I feel I’m drifting away, away, away.

Oh you’re around me.

You’re all around me.

Still you’re around me. 

You’re all around me.

CLOSE MY EYES FOREVER

Face down in the dirt again

(It’s all I ever wanted).

Parasites get underneath my skin.

(It’s what I’m going through)

Oh I’m interred with my emotions

it seams, I’m afraid to die.

Nothing’s real.

Descending.

Through it all, I fade away.

Come high hell or water low.

(I’ve had enough of reason).

Indecisions have taken hold.

(It’s what I’m gotta prove.)

There’s a promise of a new day

that feeds my attempt to hide.

Awakens me. It matters.

That all this time.

I find my life is finally over

and I’m free to live in peace. 

I’m alone tonight.

Close my eyes forever

and wash away my pride.

So come and take my soul.

Sleep well in eternity.

(My love is undecided).

Count the hours sustaining me.

(It’s where I’m going to).

I’m living in a river of tears

that I won’t survive.

The time is near.

I'm waiting.

Through it all

I know my time is finally over

and I’m free to live in peace.

I’m awake tonight.

Close my eyes forever

and strip away my pride.

So come and take my soul.

Interred with my emotions

it seams I’m afraid to die.

Someone speaks the answer.

All this time I find my life is finally over

and I’m free to live in peace.

I’m awake tonight.

Close my eyes forever

and strip away my pride.

You know inside my life is finally over

and I’m free to live in peace.

I’m awake tonight.

Close my eyes forever

and strip away my pride.

So come and take my soul.

THIS LIFE

I’ve spent a lifetime in your grace.

I’ve touched your hand to feel

that I am protected by

the sweet caress of your embrace.

I’m holding you close tonight

to help me through this insecurity.

All find I  my impurity to love.

Why am so shamed?

Dealing with my pain.

Running unrestrained.

Struggling with this troubled mind.

Around, ‘round in circles.

Where every thought

keeps turning back to your eyes.

This time without your touch

is driving me to shy away from

this life.

I’ve spent a thousand lonely days.

Channeled the past

inside my own made dependency.

Considered everything I’ve changed.

Knowing it’s you and I.

Where nothing matters anymore.

Where have I gone wrong?

Where do I belong?

Someone help my troubled mind.

Around, ‘round in circles.

Where every waking moment takes me

from you.

This time without your touch

is driving me to hide away from

this life.

Someone break these ties.

Pretend that I’ve been right.

Know that I can’t hide.

I’m dealing with this troubled mind.

Around. ‘round in circles.

Where every thought

keeps turning back to your eyes.

This time without your touch

is driving me to shy away from

this life.

YOU'LL BE THERE

Close your eyes.

Pray for peace

Standing here beside you on my knees.

Lay to rest.

Oh time to heal.

Embrace me and speak of life

that we shared.

All know I’ll be there.

Babies breath.

Eyes so real

Thank you for the love

you made me feel. 

I’m sure you will know

I’ll be there.

Oh time keeps me hanging on

Will love set us free?

And all that we’ve ever known

will not cease.

Close your eye sweet relief.

Soon we’ll be together in our dreams.

I’m sure I will find

you’ll be there.

I’m sure you will find

I’ll be there.

I’m sure we will find

you’ll be there.

ANGEL

She moves through time

like an angel on the wind.

She is part of my confusion,

a fantasy I feel upon my skin.

She shares her life.

She shares her dreams.

Oh on this grand design.

She often leads the way,

breaking hearts she’s left behind.

And when the morning comes

feel the love she brings.

Unbridled life

dancing strong upon the day.

She is one with her emotions,

an open soul you meet along the way.

Drown in her eyes,

in her beliefs

oh that the day has come.

Where we will surely know

what it means to carry on.

And when the morning comes,

feel the life that she brings.

Oh on these wings of change,

shelter me from all I’ve lost along the way. Reaching into normalcy

where shadows drift away

in streams of make belief.

Why oh why am I to blame

when all I’ve ever wanted

was to feel her touch.

Living in the modern age,

the miracles of life

don’t seem to guide of much.

But in the end we pray for her kiss.

She moves through time

like an angel on the wind.

She is poetry in motion,

a moment of my life that never ends.

Ooo I will try to walk away

and let her spirit go.

All around the world tonight.

Standing here beside me

‘till the end of time. 

I watch as the moment fades

then turn my sights towards a new escape.

My simple life will never be the same

now that I’ve found you.

WHAT AM I DOING HERE?

These insecurities

they keep crawling back and haunting me.

Oh I can’t remember iIs this real?

A shadow of where I’ve been.

You know, you know, you know,

you know I know it is just a dream.

Have I really gone crazy.

Oh am I really so crazy?

I wanna steal the night

and denounce my faith.

I’m living in a tortured mind

built on love and hate.

You know you never wanna

tow the line when you’ve lost your way.

What am I doing here?

Missed opportunities.

Wading in the dark I never dreamed

that the truth outside my destiny

is ready to take a stand.

I know, I know, I know

I know you know the truth ain't real.

Have you really gone crazy?

Why are you really all crazy.

You know that you were right.

I’m a bad mistake.

You know I’m living in a fractured mind.

Filled with love and hate.

You know you’re never gonna

fall in line when you’ve lost your way.

What are you doing here?

After time someone will notice.

After time someone will know the truth.

Why mustnI tell ‘em that everything

isn’t what it seams to be in my life.

I don’t know why.

I don’t know why.

Oh help me.

Steal the night and denounce my faith.

You know I’m living in a tortured mind

built on love and hate.

You know you never wanna

fall in line when you’ve lost your way.

What are we doing here?

Oh I don’t feel like.

You were right. I’m a bad mistake.

You know I’m living in a fractured mind

filled with love and hate

You know I’m never gonna

fall in line if I’ve lost my way.

What am I doing here?

Steal the night.

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Words & Music by JOHN EARL TUCKER

Produced by JOHNE EARL TUCKER

Bass, Guitars, Piano, Analogy Synths, Keyboards, Vocals, & Drum programming by  JOHN EARL TUCKER 

Lead Guitar KEVIN EISCHEN

Produced, Engineered, Programmed, Recorded, Mixed, and Mastered by JOHN EARL TUCKER. 

Art Direction by JOHN  EARL TUCKER

Recorded, Mixed, and Mastered with LUNA by UNIVERSAL AUDIO

© 2020. JOHN EARL TUCKER. Manufactured and marketed by Palm Way Records, LLC. Lake Worth, FL 33463

ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. Unauthorized copying, reproduction, lending, public performance, and broadcasting is prohibited.

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